Sunday, September 16, 2012

Epicurean Samadhi


Epicurean Samadhi

A beautiful September afternoon

I walk in the hills above the city

Admiring the art of wispy clouds overhead

Framed by the upper branches of ancient firs and oaks

Reunited again with my family of creation


Strolling through the Rose garden breathing fragrant air

The tangible sense of connection reaching beyond my horizons

A simple picnic overlooking the city

Mt. Hood hovering over a field of misty clouds

Our own ethereal Olympus seated majestically in the next dimension


I begin my feast… a solitary apple

Crisp green tinged with red striations

An apple offered from an ancient tree on a friends land

An apple not cultivated but offered without condition from its source

A fruit, an offering of communion, a gift of itself


My awareness also a gift, I will not simply consume

I will commune, merge with the gift I am now offered

I will receive the grace extended to the gift in the fruit

I bite into the flesh deeply deliberately slowly

Its lifeblood envelopes my tongue with sweet nectar


I receive the sacred alchemy birthed in the tree 

I taste the suns energy

It’s furious life streaming through the heavens

To find it’s receptive mate in the leaves of the apple tree

The energy cascading through branch and trunk


Pushing into deep roots causing them to seek

They burrow deeply hunting for the elements

Elements of water, mineral, nutrients

Nutrients offered up as the last gift of creatures in their passing

The final gift of a fading glory


Then the yang of this cosmic energy draws the dark treasures up

Back through the growing community of roots

Back through trunk and branch to the womb of the tree

Here the magic of creation brings together the seed

The love child of sun and earth and water and flesh


The precious seed encased in the nectar of her creation

As her promise is received in my own flesh

I am aware that this has been the gift in every apple

But perhaps for the first time in my life

I have been fortunate enough to recognize the gift

And finally say thank you


Thursday, September 13, 2012

A letter to my best friend


Jesus I need to be secure in you.  It’s not enough to find peace in a concept… God is love… and that is an awesome concept.  It’s not enough to be secure in a powerful feeling… I am connected… I am one with all… I am a part of the universal mind. I need a concept and a power with a name and a face, one who understands me completely.

I need this because I am human.  I need this because every moment of transcendent bliss and empowerment eventually gives way to a moment of brokenness where I need the divine other more than the divine unity.  Sometimes I just need a friend, and Jesus you have always been the best friend I have ever had.  My Christian triumphalism may have been filled with rotting ego and dead mans bones, but my Christian brokenness has been filled with many moments of tender acceptance from a friend who always embraced me without the least judgment.

Jesus you taught me a path of union with the divine through intercession.  Not a unity with power and perfection, but a unity with brokenness and humanity.  Not a meditation into blissful light but a meditation into the prison cells of those bound by injustice and into the institutions filled with those broken in body and mind, deemed useless by society.  I had forgotten that this too is an experience of divine union.

Jesus I am proud to be your friend.  Your way is so misunderstood even by those of us who attempt to follow.  It has been terrifying to journey so far from what I thought were the safe shores.  I am so happy to encounter you here and see once again how amazing you are.  Your humility and kindness are medicine to my heart.

I can appreciate the many ways people connect to the divine and find meaning and community. I consider all who seek peace and tolerance in our weary world my brothers in arms.  Everyone must choose a path or no path.  I am finding in my convoluted journey that I still want to follow Jesus.