Thursday, September 13, 2012

A letter to my best friend


Jesus I need to be secure in you.  It’s not enough to find peace in a concept… God is love… and that is an awesome concept.  It’s not enough to be secure in a powerful feeling… I am connected… I am one with all… I am a part of the universal mind. I need a concept and a power with a name and a face, one who understands me completely.

I need this because I am human.  I need this because every moment of transcendent bliss and empowerment eventually gives way to a moment of brokenness where I need the divine other more than the divine unity.  Sometimes I just need a friend, and Jesus you have always been the best friend I have ever had.  My Christian triumphalism may have been filled with rotting ego and dead mans bones, but my Christian brokenness has been filled with many moments of tender acceptance from a friend who always embraced me without the least judgment.

Jesus you taught me a path of union with the divine through intercession.  Not a unity with power and perfection, but a unity with brokenness and humanity.  Not a meditation into blissful light but a meditation into the prison cells of those bound by injustice and into the institutions filled with those broken in body and mind, deemed useless by society.  I had forgotten that this too is an experience of divine union.

Jesus I am proud to be your friend.  Your way is so misunderstood even by those of us who attempt to follow.  It has been terrifying to journey so far from what I thought were the safe shores.  I am so happy to encounter you here and see once again how amazing you are.  Your humility and kindness are medicine to my heart.

I can appreciate the many ways people connect to the divine and find meaning and community. I consider all who seek peace and tolerance in our weary world my brothers in arms.  Everyone must choose a path or no path.  I am finding in my convoluted journey that I still want to follow Jesus.

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